Some of the changes in my new life as a Christian are fascinating (at least to me) – those who knew me before may be surprised. I don’t look much different but there is a difference. Personally, now that I know what having the Lord in my life is like, I don’t know how I ever did without Him. Just sayin’….
One of the things I did after the spiritual attacks was to rid myself and our house of items that had links to the enemy. Some things were obvious – music, books, movies, statues/items associated with other religions, and things I had collected in my travels. Other things I had to pray about. How did I determine what to get rid of, you may ask?
Other items I struggled with were military history books and the box of personal items I had packed to “run away” and join the enemy. Once again I considered the message and theme. Books on nazi Germany were out, leadership was in. Now those of you who buy books know they aren’t cheap – I probably threw away a few hundred dollars of books alone. I got rid of tons of music, the obvious ones being some of the more popular heavy metal bands but there were a lot of other groups that went out also. Anything that was “new age” was also gone. That crap is just witchcraft in disguise. Sorry folks but just listen to the message.
The last things were the video games. Some were easy as they had a “negative” theme or I didn’t play them any more. I did keep the game console and several games that I had managed to convince myself were “good”. After a few weeks or so I destroyed the game console and got rid of the remaining games. This is the conclusion I came to: I play games to vent my aggression and escape from reality. When I go on a game “binge” (I can literally play for days on end) I am in that particular game world. Any interruption is greatly resented and results in a large amount of anger and rage being directed at the interruption. As I was thinking about what the games had done to my life I realized I had allowed the enemy to enter my house and steal from me. A difficult pill to swallow, that one….
As I sat playing games my children were ignored and my first wife moved on, resulting in divorce (OK so there were other issues but this was one of them). Still I played on, even more now. The games I chose became more and more realistic, darker, and elaborate, drawing me further into their world. My new wife (my Light shining in the darkness) tried to break through but met a wall of resistance, hostility, and denial. The only thing that broke the spell was the Lord. With the Lord in my life I was finally able to see what damage these games had done to me and my family. As the saying goes, “That’s several years of my life I’ll never get back.” End result was a pickax into the game console. It might take me a few minutes to get there but when I arrive I’m all in….
Next thing to contain is the computer…and cell phones. One way I am attacking this is to go on a “computer fast”. I have started with a day-long “fast” of keeping the computer turned off and will continue to build on that until I don’t feel the need to check the computer. Cell phones – imagine not responding to the ding of an incoming message or other alert. I like having information and the ability to talk to loved ones almost anywhere in the world but I long for the days when I wasn’t so distracted by all this technology. One way I have dealt with this in the past is “negative technology” trips where I don’t have my phone on or with me, and no other devices to distract me. I have went on one or two of these and it helps clear the clutter out when the only thing you hear is the sound of the wind and your noisy body (it was the MRE’s, I swear…). The only problem with the previous trips I had taken were the lack of purpose in them. I look forward to another trip, this one with a clear purpose of getting closer to the Lord.
Some of you reading this may think I went to extremes, but I can honestly say I don’t miss any of it. As an example we had a movie in our Netflix cue called Get Him to the Greek. Before all this we would have watched the movie and laughed about all the content. When we did watch it the language, debauchery, and sexual content made our jaws drop! In the last few months our frame of reference has changed from that movie being normal and funny to it being shocking and embarrassing. I don’t miss the music I got rid of, either. Christian music has come a long way since I last heard it in the ’80s and has a lot to chose from. Well, I like it now anyways. I initially had game withdrawals but the pick axe cured that. Now I have time for yard work (yard looks much better now) and projects around the house. I am living again.